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As I anticipate my trip back home, I have had many thoughts. The most prominent being about this being my last. I have felt as though I am in preparation for my physical death. I feel peaceful and ready for this transition/transformation, whenever it occurs. First marriage This morning, as I searched through old stuff … Continue reading wondering →

My friends are like a field of lush wildflowers. Each beautiful. Each unique. Each showing me what is still unresolved in my inner world in addition to reflecting back to me the joy I experience in life. A friend of 37 years stayed with me for a few days. There is nothing quite like one … Continue reading friendship →

 “Thank you for giving me this experience”. I heard this definition of forgiveness spoken at a memorial celebration for a kind and loving man. It stayed with me. I had a friend visit for a couple of days. This is the first time I have had anyone in my house since the pandemic. We had … Continue reading Forgiving →

I have a love-hate relationship with The News. On one hand I know that what is reported (i.e., “the news”) are aberrations of human behavior. Most people are kind and caring. Consequently, I have taken ‘news breaks’ to deal with the overwhelming cruelty of humans toward one another. On the other hand, I see the … Continue reading breaking news →

I drive by this tree on my way to and from the library. This winter, I thought it was just another old cottonwood whose water source had dried up leaving it dead. A month ago, as I drove by, a beam of sunshine illuminated the trunk, but I saw the green branches on the back … Continue reading OLD COTTONWOOD →

For those of you who have ever loved another species, their death nearly breaks your heart. My friend, Sally, lost her Arabian gelding this past week. I loved him too. We can barely talk about it. His name was Adar Ibn. Born in Texas, he moved to Colorado with his mom, which is where we … Continue reading for the love of a horse →

Oh, my goodness! It has finally dawned on me; this WordPress blog has multiple flaws! Yikes! I am so sorry! I have heard from some of you, about the impossibility of “SUBSCRIBING”. I know, the box is only available on the “Home” page. And it doesn’t always work! If you chose to “Follow” vs. “Subscribe” … Continue reading many apologies →

I am aware this is a long story. I have made a commitment to myself to share my journey. Each step of self-knowledge nudges me closer to a sustained level of quiet inside. It includes many bumps along the path, and this is one of them. It will not hurt my feelings if you don’t … Continue reading LUNA – MY TEACHER →

This morning, I sat in plastic sound booth, and blew into a tube, which was hooked to a computer that measures lung function and capacity. It’s called a Pulmonary Function Test with Bronchodilator and is done in my pulmonologist’s office. This test, among other things, reports the percentage of usable lung tissue I have which … Continue reading another miracle →

Perhaps it is the snow in May. Perhaps it is seven days of damp cold and grey skies. Perhaps it is living alone. Perhaps it has finally sunk in that there is no cure for the scar tissue that lives in my lungs. After the extraordinary energy I poured into healing my breathing, I feel … Continue reading over cast →